When living on the autism spectrum, especially Aspergers, there are a lot of struggles that come your way. One of those struggles, especially for me is anxiety. Anxiety has always been something I’ve had a struggle with and what makes it difficult is it comes in waves. For instance, in the morning I can feel very happy go lucky and even jovial. However, later on that day, my anxiety would kick in. My heart would start racing, I would stutter, shake, and get very paranoid to the point of being scared to death. Most of this has to do with certain social situations.
Due to me having Aspergers, it can be hard for me sometimes to do well in social situations their times especially if I know people in which I feel fine and I can enjoy myself amongst company however their house of been times in which I would feel afraid I’m kind of scared even when there’s no danger to be seen. It’s as if I’m going to medieval battle with no armor no sword only my flesh and blood. Yes, it can be that scary. There have been times in which it has gotten so bad, that I would be afraid to go to social events, even though I really wanted to.
No matter what day it is, this anxiety would creep up. However, there have been things that I have been testing to help me with this.
First, I would take deep breaths. Although this might sound very simple, doing this has helped me to calm down. Second, I would recite sayings to myself, mantras if you will. These sayings could be, “you are in good company”, or “you are going to do great today”. No matter how I say them, they help to be reminders for myself in times of anxiety. So far, they have been very helpful both at work and in the social world.
I’m still learning more tactics to help myself get through these challenging moments. I guess what I am saying for those in the spectrum with this issue, and even for those who are not autistic, is that there are times in which anxiety may creep its demonic head around the corner. But there are ways that you can fight it and, most importantly, is that you are not alone.